[28.12] A Check and Visit (Eodira/Shayna/Any)

[goldenauthanth]

ooc: After the topic with Mordecai.. i don't mind if you want to wait to see what happens there first.


Having begrudgingly dropped young Nileod off at the creche, Taenia had found herself temporarily alone that afternoon. A thing she hated more than anything at present, her own company.. a chance to dwell on what had happened. Her body and mind were still not healed completely from all that had happened with the twins and Authanth, but Taenia did at least have a little bit more life in her eyes when she looked at you, and colour in her skin when seen.

Today was one of those days that Eodira had called her down for a check up. A chance to see how she was getting on with life, considering everything that had happened. The woman didn't mind seeing Eodira, she was her family afterall.

She'd chosen the best time in the day for quietness in the infirmary, Tae still didn't like seeing people outside of her small circle. She hated the pity from other people, even when it was only seen in their eyes. With all the drills and chores going on today, it was unlikely that there would be many people there.

Entering the infirmary Tae made her way to the back of the infirmary, toward both Eodira's office, but also the quieter and warmer part.. the place her twins were being kept under Eodira's watchful eye. She was their grandmother afterall. She'd come down to see the twins most evenings with Mac - although never on her own. She couldn't help the 'cold' feeling she still felt towards them.. and the fear that kept her from attaching herself to them.. that same fear with still prevented her from naming them..

She heard voices towards the back of the infirmary as she arrived..one Eodira's and one sounded like Shayna's talking to a young male voice.. She kept walking past his curtains, not wanting to see Shayna of all people..
...although she wouldn't be rude enough to turn her away if she noticed her.
.. and found herself in the room with the twins, alone.. she stood there for a long while in the corer, debating whether she should go over or not.. so many excuses for not running through her mind..

[sorra]

Shayna smiled as she listened to Eodira talking with Mordecai. He was looking a bit better already. "I'll be right back. I just want to check on Sanyara real quick," she told them both as she got up.

The Weyrwoman slipped out of the curtained off area and found the apprentice that was watching her daughter. She had just taken Sanyara back when she saw a familiar figure slip by. Her eyes widened in surprise. Taenia. She hadn't seen Taenia in quite some time. She hadn't figured the woman would want to see her either, but she couldn't not say something now.

She followed Taenia back to where the twins were being kept. Of course she hadn't realized that's where they were being looked after as so much else had been going on and she was only just now able to get up and about some. "Taenia?" she asked gently, not wanting to scare the woman.

[kendrall]

R'en was back on his usual rounds when he happened to catch sight of Taenia enter the Infirmary, then walk towards the back where he knew her twins were being closely monitored. He had been one of the first to be there when she regained consciousness, had been there when the now-former Weyrwoman's twins were born...but the field medic's instincts were telling him Taenia was still in a state of denial over a great deal of things. If her twins were going to survive, in spite of the Healers' best efforts to ensure they would. The loss of Authanth had to have been the bigger blow, as the link between dragon and Rider was so strong that when the dragon was lost, it almost always had a very traumatic impact on the Rider. R'en knew the risks with Arieth, knew that if anything happened to his beloved Green and he were to lose her, it'd take a great deal of time for him to overcome the inevitable grief. He could only imagine what Taenia was going through, what she had to be thinking.

His eyes followed the former Weyrwoman until she stopped just outside the room where her twins were, then finally decided to enter and see them. R'en then noticed Shayna departing the room where the Candidate Mordecai was staying, watched her as she went to check on her daughter, and finally the new Weyrwoman was following Taenia to the back.

The field medic shook his head as he went back to his rounds. It would probably be best to leave the two women alone for now...but he'd make sure to listen for any signs of trouble. This was, after all, the Infirmary.

[goldenauthanth]

Taenia stiffened as she heard the all too familier face speak from behind her. Momentarily her thoughts and fear ran away with her as she considered in her mind that Shayna, the woman who had taken her place.. the woman who still had her dragon.. was addressing her. There was a pause as the girl inwardly battled with herself, before she turned around to face the speaker of her name. "Hi Shayna" She replied with a slight smile, inwardly telling herself to be friendly, this was not the girls fault afterall. Despite that, she couldn't bring herself to be enthusiastically friendly.. but she didn't lash out this time, as she did with Kolteya last time.

[sorra]

Shayna hung back when she saw Taenia stiffen. Maybe this hadn't been a good idea. She could only imagine what the girl was going through. She had seen how T'ryern had been affected. It had to be worse with Taenia with it being so fresh. "I'm sorry if I bothered you. I just wanted to see how you were doing," she said, shifting Sanyara in her arms so the little girl was more comfortable.

[goldenauthanth]

She looked at Shayna then.. And really looked as if she stood infront of her for the very first time. The weyrwoman looked worn out.. But then, it wasnt surprising with the baby on her hip.. The small but healthy looking baby... Taenia was jealous for a second. She had not kept up with the news of the weyr since her seclusion and had no real idea of what was going on.. Mac rarely spoke out it, she assumed he was trying to protect her and wait until she healed.
"Im getting there.." she admitted to the woman. If she thought Shayna looked back.. What on earth did she herself look like?? "its all a bit hard.. But.. I need to go on.. She would have wanted that..." her throat tense and tears threatened to fall as she thought of Authanth..

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[sorra]

Shayna stood quietly, thankful that Sanyara wasn't making a peep at the moment. She wasn't sure how Taenia would react to that. Yes, the former Weyrwoman was a mother as well, but she knew Taenia was struggling. She slowly took a step toward Taenia, hoping she wouldn't mind. Taenia looked bad in her opinion. Pale and tired, but she wasn't surprised. "I'm glad to hear that. I wanted to check on you sooner, but I wasn't allowed up and around," she admitted. Eodira had wanted her bed ridden. She manged a gentle smile. "She would. And Mac loves you and needs you too."

[goldenauthanth]

"Its fine" she replied to Shaynas I would seen you sooner comment, and it was the truth. Taenia had not been ready for any visitors. Let alone a dragonrider of gold. "I wasn't really up to visitors" she decided to admit. She was relaxing somewhat now, although her voice was still quiet.. Almost sad sounding. Conversation was still hard.. What did one talk about? Taenia really didn't know and for a while looked at the floor. "She's looking good.." in the end she had no choice but to acknowledge Sanyara. Standing there in awkward silence was not an option.

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[sorra]

Shayna nodded. "I had figured as much," she said gently. She was pretty sure Taenia still wasn't really wanting company, but Shayna hadn't been able to just let her walk by. She knew her and Taenia hadn't always seen eye to eye, but she did respect the woman and had been worried about her after Authanth's passing. Mac hadn't been willing to tell her much whenever she had managed to ask him. She glanced down at Sanyara where the baby was watching everything with big eyes. "Thank you. She's still a bit smaller then she should be since she was so early. How are the twins doing?" she asked.

[goldenauthanth]

Taenia gave her a half hearted smile and turned to look at the twins as Shayna asked about them. They were at the opposite side of the room from where Taenia had hovered around by the door. "Just fine" she replied, which was true according to the healers. Of course, Taenia inwardly battled to accept that statement but she would let that show to anyone outside of her little circle.. Not even to Shayna.

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[sorra]

Shayna followed the other woman's gaze. The twins still looked tiny, but she assumed since there weren't Healers hovering around them that they were getting better. "They're cute, Tae," she said gently, wanting to at least let the woman know that she was there for her. Although she didn't figure Taenia would ever confide in her.

[goldenauthanth]

Cute? She thought looking at them carefully, as if seeing them for the first time. Yes. She supposed that they were quite cute.. she hadn't really comtemplated them beyond little things. She certainly hadn't thought about whether they were cute.. Or not. She felt like she didn't really know them..

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[sorra]

Shayna caught the unsure look on Taenia's face. "Did I say something wrong?" she asked gently. She was trying to tread lightly with Taenia and not upset her. She wasn't quite sure what she said that would have upset her, but something had set Taenia off. Shayna just wasn't sure if it was good or bad yet.

[goldenauthanth]

She thought for a moment. No, she was not upset. "No, I was just thinking about the twins" she explained truthfully. "thats all"

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[sorra]

Shayna nodded in understanding. "It's sometimes still surreal to think they're here," she said gently. She knew she still had to pinch herself sometimes to really believe that Sanyara was there and safe in her arms.